Everything that I need to know has been resolved. No more questions from me after this. I am satisfied with the overall conclusion. I have never seen a pretense at such a great level. I have never seen myself crying for another woman plea. I am extremely disappointed in myself for hurting another. Overall, I blamed my self for trusting my love ones too much.
It was supposed to be a day of forgiveness. I threw away my ego and seek my apologies from someone. All this while, I have not been a responsible girlfriend. I was too involved in my hectic work lifestyle that I have left someone pending without attention. He was in need of maybe someone to talk to or someone to share a shoulder to cry on. I was indeed not giving any attention to him as I set my priority to my projects and datelines. I did not receive any text message but I received a call instead.
A familiar voice asking me,” Who are you? My wife is beside me”
This silly me thought that I was just a joke. How stupid! Then, that was when I received those hurtful messages on a blissful morning. Hey, I deserved it.
“Kau ni perempuan sundal ke apa?”
“Don’t you know that you are stupid?”
My replied to her was, “Maafkan I”
I was thinking, wow, what a great day to begin everything with. I was shaken and I was stuck. I didn’t know what to do. To cry, oh no...I can’t cry because of this…because of this man. No way! I keep up my fake smiles at Nenek’s place as all I wanted to do was to be alone. Ya Allah, sesungguhnya aku sungguh kerdil di hadapanmu! Forgive me!
I do not want anyone to know about it until I called her and she told me everything. I was shattered. Now, my every detailed question has been answered. My reoccurring dream explained it too. I have never seen my brother so pissed off before. My brother was there for me. I ensure Twee that i was fine. Indeed, it made me stronger. It's a great learning point which i will always remember in life.
How can a wife not know what has the husband been doing all this while with another woman? What a great liar! You have fooled almost everyone. If you are reading this, I just want you to know that I hate you…. Don’t you ever see me again cause I fucking hate you!
3 comments:
Girl you shld have done your homework before you could even commit in a relationship or rather before you go any deeper in that relationship. I feel sorry for you as you are being used all this while which shows that he pretend to love you but his heart and soul is with his wife. Learn from it and move on. Never ever take things for granted as in the end you could even hurt yourself. Anyway you are still young and you should achieve what you want in life at this point. You have yet to know what is all about love when you love someone unconditionally. And that's called true love. You should be wiser by now and I believe there are better men,good looking ones out there for you compare to this married man. And I believe that this man has learnt his lesson and realised how wonderful his wife is to forgive him when she even come to know that he had another woman.
I believe that i was never naive when i was with him. There was no trust in the first place. I held on as i need a closure... I need to get all my questions answered. I won't leave things hanging ..thats not me...Lust, money and pleasure? Do i really have that with him? hahaha...I dont think so.. A married looking for thrill and excitement, not with me....All i can say is that he is an unforgiveable sinner...someone whom i would never want to cross path ever with in my life....
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