I woke up pretty early today after Sahur feeling excited. Excited because it is a Saturday date day where I would spent my time with Andy for our dates. I will definitely miss him more next week as he is will be going overseas to Jakarta again on work issues. I realized that I am too dependent on him at times. Maybe! I feel lost sometimes when he is not around me...
Today, after paying the Zakat Fitrah with my brother, I texted Andy asking his whereabouts as I knew from him earlier that he will be around the area as he needs to go for a haircut. Along the way, I met him and tagged along with him to buy a bottle of soft drink for his mum. Everything was going well until he had to ask me to do a favor for him.
Andy ~ “Can you help me to collect the bubur (porridge) for me under your block? I will take from you later”
Me ~ “No I don’t like and I don’t want to take the porridge” Andy ~ “Why not? Why can’t you do me a favor?”
Me ~ “Because I don’t like”
We argued and he interrogated me because of this. He questioned me on my reluctance to do him a favor. All I could say was “I don’t like to collect porridge”. My stubbornness plus his short temperamental causes the argument. I wasn’t willing to give in and by then he was pissed off my unreasonable actions. He was irritated with his Fiancée which brought him so much anger in him. It’s just a simple favour! What was wrong with me?
I walked away from him with a sulking face as he tried to let off his anger on me. As per norm, I didn’t look at him and ignored him totally. I just kept quiet and the moment I reached home, I became so emotional and cried. Stupid or what? Hahahah….
First thing is ~ No one at home ever asked me to collect the bubur because they know I will retaliate if they asked me to…Hahaha? If I say no, it means no!
Second thing is ~ I don’t like to be reprimanded by people that I love…
Do you see now the effect of overly pampering a child from young? She will just get stubborn and wants thing to be in her ways.
After an hour of being alone, I messaged Andy to inform him that I will give the Family dinner a miss. After those pacifying and loving words, I agreed to join the family for dinner. Perangai right? If anyone in the world that could bear with my temper, I think it has to be Andy!
Dinner tonight went well. Alhamdullilah, we are blessed with variety of dishes on the table to break our fast. Thanks to Andy’s dad for treating the family! We talked and laughed our heart contents after dinner and it makes me feel so blessed to have Andy and his Family with me. Sometimes I am just too hard-headed and wouldn’t give in. If only I could be soft-hearted, wouldn’t it be better?
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