How can my Fiancé bear with my outrages attitude? How can he even endure without repugnance? I was amazed on how he could put up with my crankiness. He just keeps his cool and tolerated with my ugly temper. Sometimes, it gets really bad, to the point of being disrespectful. If things don’t get my way, I will just ignore the whole situation and turn ignorant towards anything which includes him. I could just turn him down after he took the effort to make plans for us such us meeting up with friends. I would just give him a straight answer of NO. Sarcastically, without even considering his feelings.
I decide on something’s and I want it to happen my way. I reacted based on my emotions instead of being rational about it. It doesn’t matter if I have to be impudent as long as I get what I want. I have forgotten to acknowledge that I am supposed to respect this relationship. Such an adamant attitude should be removed permanently. It is critical to give in and stop being too hardheaded about it. I should learn to be willing to accept and giving in. Isn’t that how’s love supposed to work?
I retaliate over little things and wasn’t flexible and pliant. I was stubborn enough to stick with my decisions. When he asked me on my refusal, I just replied that I wasn’t in the mood to meet up with people. I wasn’t in the mood to watch football with him or I wasn’t in the mood to do anything. I was persistent and firm in my reply if I do not wish to go for it. Even so, he kept on trying. For all I know, I am just PMS-ing. That shouldn’t even be a consideration for an answer. But, I had to use it. Like seriously, I feel so moody and I don’t feel like socializing with anyone during this period of time. Anyone except Andy. It is during this period that I crave for his absolute attention, his love and his concern. The effect of PMS turn me into a short-temper person, I get cranky and angry instantly. It feels like getting up on the wrong side of the bed everyday. I become so grouchy and grumpy and at the same time bearing with the excruciating symptoms of monthly menstrual. This would include fatigue where I get tired easily and may have trouble sleeping at night, tension and irritability where I feel very on the edge and response to situation based on my emotions. My normal feelings are exaggerated and become more argumentative towards any decision. The swelling and the soreness makes everything feel uncomfortable. I become sensitive and feel so terrible inside.
If anyone were to understand how I feel, it should be him. He should be showing me more concern and attention. He should be spending more time with me instead of including others. Oh yes, that’s how selfish I can be during this time of the month.
P.S: I am not ridiculous on normal days… ermm ..i think….
I decide on something’s and I want it to happen my way. I reacted based on my emotions instead of being rational about it. It doesn’t matter if I have to be impudent as long as I get what I want. I have forgotten to acknowledge that I am supposed to respect this relationship. Such an adamant attitude should be removed permanently. It is critical to give in and stop being too hardheaded about it. I should learn to be willing to accept and giving in. Isn’t that how’s love supposed to work?
I retaliate over little things and wasn’t flexible and pliant. I was stubborn enough to stick with my decisions. When he asked me on my refusal, I just replied that I wasn’t in the mood to meet up with people. I wasn’t in the mood to watch football with him or I wasn’t in the mood to do anything. I was persistent and firm in my reply if I do not wish to go for it. Even so, he kept on trying. For all I know, I am just PMS-ing. That shouldn’t even be a consideration for an answer. But, I had to use it. Like seriously, I feel so moody and I don’t feel like socializing with anyone during this period of time. Anyone except Andy. It is during this period that I crave for his absolute attention, his love and his concern. The effect of PMS turn me into a short-temper person, I get cranky and angry instantly. It feels like getting up on the wrong side of the bed everyday. I become so grouchy and grumpy and at the same time bearing with the excruciating symptoms of monthly menstrual. This would include fatigue where I get tired easily and may have trouble sleeping at night, tension and irritability where I feel very on the edge and response to situation based on my emotions. My normal feelings are exaggerated and become more argumentative towards any decision. The swelling and the soreness makes everything feel uncomfortable. I become sensitive and feel so terrible inside.
If anyone were to understand how I feel, it should be him. He should be showing me more concern and attention. He should be spending more time with me instead of including others. Oh yes, that’s how selfish I can be during this time of the month.
P.S: I am not ridiculous on normal days… ermm ..i think….
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