It was a bad week for me ~ from Monday, all the way to Sunday. Once in while, days like these come by but it’s not likely to be for the whole week. Mine was! Sigh!
The major over dried brain tissue has been sucked up by the overloaded projects and workload. Mentally tortured and physically tired! To make it worst, on alternate weekdays, I have to attend the 3 hours long lecture right after work. Brain dead! At the end of the long and tiring day, I have my sunshine to hold on too ~ luckily for me.
There were many major things revolving around me during those few days. I felt so out of control realizing how arrogant and haughty I have become in the period of these few years. I wonder where the old Noraidah has gone too.
The sociable and cheerful person with tricks up her sleeves all the time. Things made me changed into someone who is anti-social ~ preferably to be in the world of her own. What happen to me?
I am not cocky, domineering, and egoistic in the past. I am not! It seems that nowadays I have my own exaggerated self opinion. It seems that SORRY is not in my dictionary. It’s hard to even say it out knowing that I am in the wrong and at fault. I have missed my old self. I miss that bubbly girl!
One of the major incidents that happened last week was when I was being biggety and insolent to the extra resources in the office. I can’t stand this particular guy in the office who is outrageously SLOW and inefficient in the entire task that was assigned to him. Everything about him is slow. His pronunciation, his reflexes ~ I mean all!
He kept asking on assistance on the same issue. He put me in a complete rage and I lost my patience. Holding back to my anger was inevitable. I lost my temper and reprimanded him without thinking much ~ it’s not rational that I am not in the right state of mind! To lose my temper really means a lot as I have a high tolerance for patience. Don’t push me! Well he did!
To a point ~ one of my colleagues had to tell me off. “No matter how slow someone is, he has his own special talent”. I kept quiet and suddenly it kept me thinking that it was wronged and stuck up of me to judge someone as incapable just because he is not moving fast. That was my expectation. Have I ever question him what are his challenges? Never! So what’s with the attitude then?
I mustered all the courage that I had left for the fault that I have made. I called him for a short discussion and he told me his points on what he was able to do. He proved me wrong! Though, he was not as steadfast as the others, it was his perseverance that finally completed the task which I have assigned to him earlier. He did a great job in helping us with the storeroom. Something ~ that all of us would procrastinate on! Good Job! Thank you for the great assistance!
What happened made me realized that “A man on its own, is not an island”. We are interconnected and people are not isolated from one another. Someday, we need help from others, maybe our enemy. Human being does not thrive when isolated from others. We work hand in hand and we acknowledge that being human, we make mistakes. If we are not given a chance to rectify it, how do we then prove our value and capability?
As for me, i've learnt to say Sorry again..
P.S: Throw away that attitude please…
The major over dried brain tissue has been sucked up by the overloaded projects and workload. Mentally tortured and physically tired! To make it worst, on alternate weekdays, I have to attend the 3 hours long lecture right after work. Brain dead! At the end of the long and tiring day, I have my sunshine to hold on too ~ luckily for me.
There were many major things revolving around me during those few days. I felt so out of control realizing how arrogant and haughty I have become in the period of these few years. I wonder where the old Noraidah has gone too.
The sociable and cheerful person with tricks up her sleeves all the time. Things made me changed into someone who is anti-social ~ preferably to be in the world of her own. What happen to me?
I am not cocky, domineering, and egoistic in the past. I am not! It seems that nowadays I have my own exaggerated self opinion. It seems that SORRY is not in my dictionary. It’s hard to even say it out knowing that I am in the wrong and at fault. I have missed my old self. I miss that bubbly girl!
One of the major incidents that happened last week was when I was being biggety and insolent to the extra resources in the office. I can’t stand this particular guy in the office who is outrageously SLOW and inefficient in the entire task that was assigned to him. Everything about him is slow. His pronunciation, his reflexes ~ I mean all!
He kept asking on assistance on the same issue. He put me in a complete rage and I lost my patience. Holding back to my anger was inevitable. I lost my temper and reprimanded him without thinking much ~ it’s not rational that I am not in the right state of mind! To lose my temper really means a lot as I have a high tolerance for patience. Don’t push me! Well he did!
To a point ~ one of my colleagues had to tell me off. “No matter how slow someone is, he has his own special talent”. I kept quiet and suddenly it kept me thinking that it was wronged and stuck up of me to judge someone as incapable just because he is not moving fast. That was my expectation. Have I ever question him what are his challenges? Never! So what’s with the attitude then?
I mustered all the courage that I had left for the fault that I have made. I called him for a short discussion and he told me his points on what he was able to do. He proved me wrong! Though, he was not as steadfast as the others, it was his perseverance that finally completed the task which I have assigned to him earlier. He did a great job in helping us with the storeroom. Something ~ that all of us would procrastinate on! Good Job! Thank you for the great assistance!
What happened made me realized that “A man on its own, is not an island”. We are interconnected and people are not isolated from one another. Someday, we need help from others, maybe our enemy. Human being does not thrive when isolated from others. We work hand in hand and we acknowledge that being human, we make mistakes. If we are not given a chance to rectify it, how do we then prove our value and capability?
As for me, i've learnt to say Sorry again..
P.S: Throw away that attitude please…
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