My mind is in turmoil as my body weakened and everything seems to be in a daze. I can’t think and maybe the reality of life is forcing me into depression. The more I think about it, the more distant I feel about it. It seems that discussion leads to non-conclusion. It seems that my mind is too lethargic and is not functioning to list out my thoughts and ideas. As I hold back my feelings, sometimes I wish I could just let it go. Somehow my lips are sealed tight and expressing my inner views seems hard as I try to calm myself to sanity.
I went around in search of my family…
Searching for my Grandmother and in a search for a reason for the family breakup..
I went searching for hope but came back without any luck …
I wish Grandpa is here with me now…
I went around in search of compromising…
Compromising on a decision and in making everyone happy about it..
I went on holding on what I wanted as it a once in a life time event…
All I ask was for happiness, joy and blessings by everyone…
I went around in search of bonding...
Searching for myself in a group of regular strangers being accompanied by my soul..
I went on trying in hope that one day I will be able to adapt…
Without being left on my own…
I went around in search of my identity..
Looking for who am I now ….
Finding the real me and hopefully Moving on and leaving everything else behind me…
Or maybe the best thing to do is to be left all on my own…..
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