Where have I been?

Here I am again, revisiting my beloved blog. Yes, it has been a while since I have updated my daily entries. I won’t say that I have been procrastinating – I’m just too busy to think and it has been quite some time that I have my own free time just to sit down and blog about life.

There’s a lot to think about:

• -          My wedding details
• -          Our property website (Most of it is done by my beloved Fiancé)
• -          Savings and more savings
• -          Family decision
• -          Planning and more plannings  

Life has been quite a blessing – settling myself down at a new environment, introducing myself to new people, meeting higher expectations and pushing myself to be a better person. A better someone to my family, fiancé and friends. 

My life changes and it revolves around a different world now - new sets of friends, flexible working hours, long journey home and especially financial issue. I need to learn to handle my money as I have been spending a lot and i am still in need of a retail therapy.

My obese body is trying to accept the Pilates class and gym and not forgetting those weekend hiking with Andy. It's crucial that i lose at least some weight for this year as the both of us have been gaining weight unknowingly??? It affected  me a lot as I couldn't stand the new body mass although the new cup size really does makes me feel sexy....that's not the point anyway...hahahaha...Who doesn't like to have a nice cup? I do ! lalala..

As the brain reaches its peak of maturity, I learn to  cherish my life and love ones more. At a certain point, the mind’s favorite word was death. I know it’s inevitable. I’m incapable of preventing it – sooner or later my time will come. It saddens me if I have to leave love ones behind or leave the world before I have succeed  or achieve my goal in this life. It kind of bizarre to have such feelings at the age of 28 and for it seems that I am just too scared to go to sleep each and every night thinking that I will not wake up the next day.

It kind of affected me emotionally and I can foresee that if this goes on, I will definitely lose my mind.  On a good note on the other hand, it brought me closer to God.