Distant

For I’ve been pacing up and down my room, each time peeping at my phone hoping for some comforting text message. The conversation last night wasn’t helping much. As I stared at my phone, I was hoping for any mode of vibration although I know that I wasn’t going to pick up any calls. Yes, women are like that! We wouldn’t want to answer your call or your text messages but we would want you to keep on calling like a million times!

The more silent you are, the more distant I am towards you. I am like that by nature... (Unfortunately)..

Arguments and misunderstandings are inevitable in a relationship and it’s undeniable to stay away from it. For we have come such a long way and it seems that each and every time, I am not able to filter this hard-headedness in me or letting off my ego. I wasn’t sure if it was the best of decisions to visit me in the wee hours. For I guess, nothing was resolved and it did make matters worse. Not forgetting, that it’s our 31^st..

It’s my emotions which I refuse to let go. For each and every time I tried harder than before but the outcome remains the same. I was taken aback by the silence and I am still hoping for words to soften my feelings. The endless discussion evolves over topic such as family, friends, events, get-together, marriage plans and to having a child. Am I that selfish to let what I really wanted slip through? Or is it really the time to let go?