Definitely Maybe...

I remembered an occasion where I was in the cab on the way to a wedding function. For that day itself, I was honestly excited and I can’t wait to be part of the event. I got myself ready earlier than expected and got myself dressed up in my best white Kebaya. I was happy enough that I am able to fit the attire and I thanked the MediaCorp’s gym for being my companion during lunch hours.

There I was admiring myself and waiting anxiously for the moment where Andy would come over and fetch me. For the first time, I am all set to go and not late for the appointment. In my excitement while waiting for Andy, I browse through the internet (facebook..hahaha) via my device and I was completely turned off by some pictures of the event which I was about to attend.

It was a mixed feeling between cancelling the plan or just to proceed ahead with a damn black face. Of course , I didn’t have the choice right but to go. Some people are just not sensitive towards others. I shall not elaborate on what happened but for all I know I am pissed (wad dafug). To make things worst, I didn’t get any comforting words from anyone and I proceeded on with the event on a very heavy heart.

For that 2 days, I turned into an anti-social human who didn’t want to socialize with anyone. It was devastating and hurting that the one you love wasn’t tactful enough towards your feeling. It made me felt distant towards going to anymore event or gathering. There were no attempt in making me feel better and throughout I felt so isolated. If people don’t even care about how I will feel so why do I even have to care about how they feel right? Oh my, I am so full of negative thoughts. Well, who wouldn’t be?

P.S: Tiffany Blue - you are out!!